It could be as simple as overestimating your future time do apply to projects, which is a common fallacy adults make because holy fuck does time slip by faster than as a kid.
But the second bit seems to indicate that there is anxiety mixed into this, which leads to the obvious “gear acquisition syndrome” (buying things for stress relief) or other anxiety related disorders involved which can manifest as procrastination (which is a form of stress relief from having to plan, especially if you are perfectionist about the circumstances surrounding a project).
I can get into a cycle where I seemingly “punish” myself by not doing fun things, until ever other possible thing is done first. And of course there’s always more work to do first so I don’t properly stress relieve myself. One of a few things I need to watch out for. Another way it can manifest is:
- “I want to do X”
- “To have the most fun I need to optimize X by doing Y”
- “And to optimize Y I should do Z”
- “Fuck it I’ll watch anime or some shit”