A bit of context
Near the end of my junior year of high school a friend and I were approached by the Chief Innovations Officer (CIO) of a local university. They were generous enough to offer us both a full ride scholarship as long as we helped to re-define what education was at the university. It was an offer that gave us both the flexibility to turn a regular CS degree into something more individualized and more meaningful. I should mention that at this time I was miserable during high school. It wasn’t that it was too hard though it was actually the opposite. High school for me was something too easy that I couldn’t see the point of and that was reflected by my looking very average on paper. My friend and I accepted offer and graduated a month later.
We worked throughout the summer with the CIO on a plethora of things then we began our classes in late August. It was nothing special to be quite honest and it was around mid October that my depression really hit home. I’ve struggled with depression since I was ten years old. At the time I wasn’t being treated in any way and I had to medically withdraw. Shortly after this I started taking medication and going to therapy and I felt okay. I still didn’t feel great and was still a little weary, but I decided to return for the next semester. It didn’t go much better and ended in the same result as the first time. After that I changed medications to something that actually helped quite a bit and returned to therapy. My friend transferred to another university at the end of this semester as well.
After a while I continued my work with the CIO as an individual instead of student. It was my hope that we could establish a computer science education degree at the university. However, around the end of August 2018 the university laid off the CIO and moved their school of educations department chair elsewhere. Prior to this there was resource issues and the two things were the final straw.
Now that I’m 19 and no longer working on anything I’ve asked myself what should I do? When I was in high school I really didn’t value a college degree. I saw it as something you needed to get a job. But having learned a lot about education while working my value for degrees is non-existent. So my question is what should I do? Do I suck it up and attempt to get a degree that I won’t value and I’m not sure I’ll succeed in? Or should I do something else? All I want to do is teach CS. Sorry for the long post, but any feedback is greatly appreciated.