If your friends don’t tolerate you, they don’t know you, if they did they would tolerate whatever you threw their way.
Friends in general are overrated, no need to make something out of them and make yourself depend on their acceptance / confirmation or what it is you feel you need from them.
You really don’t need it and are much better off without those kind of friends, i assure you. Things takes time, sometimes even the most simple things, can take a lifetime, (And that’s okay) So be less harsh on yourself and take the time you need.