The fuck are you talking about, you are what like early 20s ? Man the whole life is in front of you. No matter how bad you think you have it there is always a way out of the situation and suicide is not one of them. Friends come and go, in my life even though I am only 25 I had till now more than 100 people that I called friends. They also called me a friend. Do you know with how much I keep in touch? Only 2. But that is not a thing to be sad about.
You can find friends around you if you just look. But you should know that having friends is a two way stream of communication, do not just wait on them to call you. Call them, get in touch.
Also don’t overdo it, because just as how you have some work and can’t go out with them they have those moments sometimes, sometimes they may not want to come out with you - it has happened to all of us.
I understand sometimes sadness is crushing but you must know that there are 7 FUCKING BILLION people on this planet and there are LITERALLY ( I don’t use this word often ) HUNDREDS of people who share your exact believes and could be the friends you have always looked for ! You just have to find them.
Actually all of us here in the forum are kinda friends. Because we care for you we tried to stop you from overclocking the processor because we know what would of happened if you failed again. It is not that we did not want you to succeed but because we already felt the same pain you are feeling right now. The pain of failing. It is one the many failing that you will have in your life but it necessary.
The best way to become better is though failure, because then every time you are about to make the same mistake you will remember that feeling of pain and that will stop you from making the same mistake twice.
I have failed a lot in my life, with my first computer ( barely had money and destroyed the pins on the motherboard, lied on my bed for a week and cried over my failure ). My second relationship was a total mess ( don’t wanna talk about it it was the same as before but for a month ). What I am trying to tell you is those moments come and go. No matter how bad you feel right now it will pass with time. You will not forget it but it will be for the better of you.
You can always find a new way to work for Wendell even when you are missing a good machine. You can talk with him if he needs some help with splitting the audio from the video on the news so they can be uploaded as a “radio stream thingy” I see he is not the fastest with that.
This will not replace what you wanted to do initially but it is a good start. Get it going then find something else that you can do with what you have at your hands at the moment. With time try to collect money and get yourself a new processor just please don’t overclock it this time. Processors used for work should not be overclocked just because of stability. there will be like 15% difference in performance at max. This is really not a big deal just let it run overnight.
So what do you think after all my rambling ? How is this does it sound like a plan to you ?